When the Universe gifts us with clarity it’s sometimes unwelcome. That’s because we like to live in the fantasy world we’ve constructed for ourselves: our delusions about how things are, based on how we want them to be. Or even how we think they should be.
There were times in my life when I completely rejected the gift of clarity. Occasions when the inescapable reality of how things really were was so painful I thought I couldn’t bear it.
I took refuge in my analytical skills. All the reasons why. All the reasons why not. How I was a victim. How I co-created the reality. Vacillating between my fantasy and reality, microscopically examining every bit of it, my head spun.
Can you relate?
Eventually, though, truth will out and we simply have to accept things are they are.
Ain’t easy.
Really, though, clarity is a gift that allows us to live up to our true potential. It can be a turning point that clears the way for us to be our best selves.
That’s what I tell myself, anyway. And most of the time, it’s true.
I keep hoping that the choices we have recently made will clarify some things in our lives. That our son will be thrilled we are now near him; that our grandchildren in CA won’t forget us; that I will settle into a writing schedule that finally produces a novel that others want to read. I’m not dead yet!
It sounds like you’ve got your bases covered, Beth!